I also need to address the elephant in the room of yes, I realize that it's been a while since I've blogged. We did have a great summer and took the family to Disney thanks to Premier Designs!! I suppose that I should have blogged on that and I guess that I will some day, but I'm dipping my toe in first with the "hottest" topic at our house which is homeschool.
Obligatory 1st day of school pics:
I have to say that one observation I've made so far...there is a fine line between feeling like SuperMom and feeling like FailureMom. You that are used to reading my blog (back when I was posting regularly) or if you know me at all...you know that I like to live in honesty world. I'm just telling you like it is. My first day I walked into it with much fear and trembling! When we were done I looked at myself and said, "This is easier than I thought. Why didn't I do this sooner? I'm SuperMom...cleaning, laundry, school!" What does the Bible say about pride? Wow...it didn't take long for me to get knocked down a peg or FIVE!
Last week went fairly well in the grand scheme of things if I'm being honest. This week is only 2 days in and...not so much. Yesterday was FailureMom. I felt like I couldn't help Carson understand anything. He got frustrated. I got frustrated. It wasn't a good scene. I truly texted my precious hubby and said I was done. If he wanted to homeschool them that was fine and I would find a full time traditional job again and he could do it. Otherwise I was going to re-enroll them in school because I was clearly not cutting it as teacher or even as mom at the moment. Thankfully Ernie isn't a "freaker outer" like me. He talked me off the ledge and after I had a little "deck alone time" and another cup of coffee (which make most things better in my world) I realized he was right and I can truly be stupid sometimes.
I knew going into this that there would be hard days. I knew that Carson had been struggling some in school last year so I suspected he would be the harder nut to crack. I also know that the enemy is a liar. He preys on our emotions at the time and our fears. The enemy knew that I have been worried about money lately. In the past 3 months we've spent almost $2000 in unexpected expenses (A/C went out at the house, car repairs for hubby's car, a tree fell on our house). That's a lot of money to us. This weekend our condensation pump backed up and we had water in our basement. I've had a desire for around 4-5 years to move back to the Trussville area (we've lived in this house 9 years next month). We still need to replace our broken dishwasher (put on hold due to extra expenses), paint the interior, replace the kitchen floor, get carpets cleaned, among a few other things that don't have an expense tied to them before we can put a sign in the yard. All those things seemed a lot bigger than they actually are when Monday rolled around with a bad day of homeschool. The enemy used all of that to make me second guess doing the things that we believe God has led us to do (full time Premier, homeschool, etc.). Did I mentioned my hubby has been doing a series at church on spiritual warfare? I didn't? Well, no surprise that he is. Anytime he speaks on spiritual warfare these type things happen. You'd think I'd learn!
Anyway, I choose to dwell on the following: I am more than a conqueror with Christ, I'm a daughter of the King, I'm made in the image of Christ, I'm clothed in the righteousness of Christ, I'm part of the beautiful bride of Christ, I am NOT a failure because Christ makes me an overcomer (thanks for the reminder, Mandisa), I have the same power living in me that overcame death and the grave, I have the same power in me that made deaf people hear and blind people see...I talk every day to the King of kings and Lord of lords and HE HEARS ME!!!! Take that, Satan!
How are your first days of school going? Are you in public, private or home school?
