What do I mean by that title? What's behind 20 months?...you might be asking (unless you're Rhonda or Ernie). Well, there is a lot behind that time frame...mainly our house.
Our house will have been on the market 20 months the first week of March. Many of you just gasped at that and that's ok...some days I feel like that too. But 20 months represents so much more than just that - let me explain.
First and foremost, 20 months represents faithfulness by our Lord. You probably think I'm out of my mind by saying that, but it's true. God has faithfully provided for our needs every month, every week and every day of every week and month! His provision has been incredible as we have a roof over our head in a safe neighborhood with wonderful schools and 5 minutes from my office. He has provided jobs for Ernie and I that pay for groceries, mortgage, our vehicles and so much more than we really need. God has been faithful to continue to provide people to come and look at our house even if they're not buying it right now. It only takes one showing...one person or one family and one day that person or family will come along - I believe that.
Also, 20 months represents learning. God has taught us so much about prayer, believing that God is Who He says He is (no matter what happens or doesn't happen), beliving that God will do what He says He will do (no matter what happens or doesn't happen), beliving that God's Word is alive and active in us, believing God (can you tell I've listened to Beth Moore?), each other and faith in general. We have also learned that this is a really trivial thing in the grand scheme of things and there are so many people that have things a lot worse than our 35 minute commute to the church family that we love.
20 months represents rest. Rest I said!!! How can we rest keeping our house up with two kids? I obviously don't mean physical rest. We rest in God's promise that He Who began a good work in us will be faithful to complete it (Phil. 1:6). We believe that He began a good work when He led us to Clearview. We believe that God put it on our heart years ago in ministry that we should live in the area where we serve. We know that the Lord will complete that in His timing, and guess what? His timing is always perfect and His ways are always higher and He always knows better than me...always! I can rest in that.
Last, but not least...6 months ago I probably didn't have this peace. Honestly, I probably didn't feel this way ONE month ago, but God has brought me to this place and I'm so glad. It has been difficult for me to get here, and truthfully, there are days that I might not be there, but I FINALLY can thank God for the past 20 months. I don't know what the reason is that God is allowing us to wait this long, but I really don't have to know...and He doesn't have to tell me. I am ok with the fact that I might NEVER know this side of heaven.
I'm grateful for my family (immediate and church!) and I'm grateful for my home...both current and future. I'm also reminded that this isn't really my home anyway which I'm grateful for more than ANYTHING!!
Are you going through something you don't understand too? Have you given it over to the Author and Finisher of our FAITH???
3 comments:
Awesome post!! And too true. Getting pregnant with Ali was like that for us. It took almost 2 years - 2 years that wasn't in our plan. But we had so many ministry opportunities that happened in that two years that wouldn't have happened had I been pregnant. God was working his plan the whole time even though we couldn't see it until we were on the other side of it!
It took us almost 2 years with Jackson so I feel you on that one too. I think it was around 20 months for him. We found out on our 9th anniversary though which was really cool! I think it brought us closer together as a couple through prayer and faith!!
It will happen for you when you least expect it...I promise. 18 months for us. Then, out of the blue.
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