I woke up at 4:00 AM and couldn't sleep (although we crashed pretty early last night as I wasn't feeling well) because it's less than 10 hours until we meet our daughter for the first time. So what do I do? Write a blog post! I want to remember every emotion and thought that I'm feeling right now one day as a testimony to God's faithfulness.
Yesterday we had a meeting with one of our guides and another adopting family to go through the agenda day by day and paperwork needed at each thing, etc. I have to say that we left there very overwhelmed. All of that information was handed to us already typed up on paper when we got off the plane, but to go through it piece by piece is very overwhelming. We had the "deer in the headlight" look I'm sure...so did the other couple so luckily we're not alone!
This morning as I think about what today holds it is very easy to get anxious and scared. I can't say that I'm not a little of that, but as I've prayed these past few minutes God has given me His peace...the peace that passes all understanding. I truly don't understand, but I'm grateful for it. We were prepared yesterday for the fact that we don't know what state she will be in when she's given to us and there is really no way to be totally prepared. This is an out of control moment for us...which isn't natural for us control freaks, but if there is anything that we've learned in ALL we've gone through for the past 2 years it has been that these can be the most peaceful because we are forced to rest in Christ and the truth that we DO know.
We know that His grace is sufficient...for EVERYTHING. We know that He is faithful to complete the good work He started in us. We know that He is our source of strength and supply. We know that He is our creator and knows us better than anyone. He knows what we need before we do. He knows exactly what we'll experience this afternoon when we are handed our precious Madison Jade and He will be sufficient. What a joy and peace to know these things!!! What a privilege it is to rest in these truths as we face the unknown...not the fear of the unknown, but with God's strength which is made perfect in our weakness...and boy are weak at this moment. We've cried at just about everything since we've been here which isn't normal for either of us!
Do I still creep back into some human flesh type of moments? Yes, but His kindness leads me to repentance and we walk in bold blind faith with what He has called us to do as we have seemed to do for the entire past 2 years of our lives. We're so unworthy to be called to these things, but Christ makes us worthy...it's only through Him that we're able to do this...or ANYTHING!! And as Pastor David Platt said a couple of month ago when he was in this exact same place we are today at The Garden Hotel, "We adopt not so that we can rescue, but because we are the rescued".
Thank You, Father, for this incredible gift of adoption and for all the many emotions and thoughts swirling through us right now. Thank You for Your perfect peace and strength to walk the steps we will walk later today. Amen
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All those feelings are such a part of the journey, and I'm so glad you are writing them down! It will be so neat to look back at life before MJ..at these moments just before she becomes a Willis!
It won't be long now...and yes, God has gone before you and is in every single moment and detail. And I cannot wait to see how He shows His power through this adoption!
We are so praying for you and sweet MJ...He will give you the wisdom to know what she needs at just the right moment!
We love yall!!!!
SO excited for you guys. Can't wait to see pics and hear the story! Much love and many prayers...
Was thinking earlier how blessed we are to have the opportunity to share through this blog and other ways this journey with your precious family...and it dawned on me...one day Madison will read these memories and emotions. And how blessed she is to be coming to a family as Godly as yours...so much ahead for her that she most likely never would have known without you (meaning all of you). You all were matched by the King! And He has gone ahead of you, planned the way, laid the foundation.
Looking forward to my early morning update ; )
Prayers first though...3 1/2 hours and counting!
I'm so excited and happy that this time is finally here for you! I can't wait to see the pics of ya'll with your little girl!! Blessings for your family!
Have been thinking about y'all so much especially today! It's almost time!!!!
Wow....just a few more hours and that sweet MJ will be in your arms. I have been counting the hours back at home.
We are praying for you and that precious MJ. I know that God is in control!
We love you guys and I cant wait to see pictures.
LOVE YOU!!
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Connie
I was also awake at 4am on gotcha day! I crawled into the little bed with my girls and prayed. What an emotional time for all of us. I can't wait to join you in Guangzhou!
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