Why Can't I Trust Him?

I have these conversation with God sometimes and I know that He must truly shake His head and laugh at me at times. This morning is a good example...it went something like this:

Dear Heavenly Father, I want to use this time in the car productively rather than listening to sports talk radio so I just want to talk to you about this house thing. It will be a year this week that our house is on the market, did you realize that, Lord? I don't understand it really...I'm just being honest because I know that is what you want from us. I know that you called us to Clearview and that's why we accepted that call, I also know that early in ministry you called us to live in the area where we serve so that we can serve better and lastly, I know that you called us to be wise stewards of our money and get out of debt. Well, the first one happened over a year ago, Lord and the last two hinge on us selling our house so why hasn't that happened? I'm trying to trust...I know that you're in control and your timing is perfect, but I don't understand. I know that you don't have to make me understand, but I'm really having a hard time with all of this. I'm sorry if I sound complacent...I don't mean to be because I know that we're blessed, but time is getting short for school registration and I need you to sell our house this week. Please do that for us Lord...I'm trying to trust. Help the part of me that doesn't trust, please. I'm sorry I'm a worm most times. Please forgive me and help my unbelief!

You've heard of a ramblin' wreck from Georgia Tech? Well, I'm a rambling wretch...a wretched worm! Surely that is worth a laugh from the sovereign God of the universe...it's amazing that He still wants me to talk to Him and pursues a relationship with me. How incredible is our God? I wouldn't want to hear that every time I talked with someone, would you? So I ask...why can't I just trust Him? Why is it so hard to trust the One who has given me eternal life...the One who has plans for me - to prosper me and not harm me and to give me a hope and a future?! Who could be more trustworthy than that? NO ONE...so why can't I trust Him? I'm just a worm!